Friday, July 09, 2010
it really kills me you know, to see you like that. I dont know why its so hard to look the other way. I cant stop beating myself up over the fact that its my fault. Its my fault your in this state. If i never had met you. If i had never had said those three words. If i never held your hand. Life would have been simpler. It wont come to an ultimatum. Its either this or that.
I feel guilty. Like a just dumped a load in a can and the flush wont work. Pity the person who has to clean it up. Pity the next occupant. Im guess im a cold rock. Heartless. Emotionless. Carefree.
We humans are silly creatures. We put ourselves through stuff well knowing its going to be tough. Well knowing its shitty. Knowing we dont know what to do when shit hits the fan. I guess im lucky to have seen life gone right. I guess your unlucky to have not. Your scarred. Torn. Afraid. Thats why hate. Thats why your angry.
Dont encourage this self fulfiling prophecy of failure and death. Dont take this world so seriously. There are so many things wrong with this world. Why be part of the things that make this world a place to hate.
I dont believe to be any expert. I dont believe to know. I only know what ive seen, what ive experienced what i learnt from the ones before. It isnt a mathematical formula but it aint a hoax. There is this thing to family and i have much belief in it.
I pray for you.
i can prove anything,i'll make you admit again and again.
5:31 AM
